That is the question, whether it is going to happen or not, has me wondering. And by a snow, I mean accumulating.
While it is VERY cold, in the low 20's and going to get colder over the next few days, (Friday's Low is -4 degrees) The Meteorologists have said that over the past week every day there has been a chance of snow.
So far, not much, and as of this minute there is nothing on the ground. The way they were explaining it on the news this morning, it was going to come down big time, and going to be a mess.
Well What besides the cold is out there right now? Clouds, and More COLD, and a Very little bit of snow
Besides the idiots that get out in drive like maniacs in the bad weather. The snow is SO beautiful, I love to look at the untouched Snow and the snow on the trees is beautiful. But we havent had that so far this winter, we have had snow on the ground, but within a few days its gone, and not enough to get out and go sledding in or play in. Thats all the fun of the snow.
Will it come or not, I dont know, I am not a forecaster! But I would like to see it come...But then again, if it does, then school could be canceled, and then I can go bonkers trying to find things to do for the little one, which isn't too hard, but she gets bored easy. But I am supposed to go in tomorrow to help out...we will see how things work out.
To Snow or Not to Snow That is the Question.....
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Amused by kids
I help my daughter's (2nd grade) teacher out a few times a week, which I really enjoy being able to do. It is a great thing, and the majority of the class are great kids. I really enjoy being able to help the teacher and work with the kids.
Right now what was my point again??
Oh yeah, today, I took a few of the kids upstairs to the computer lab, which is what I usually do on Tuesdays, but the funny part about it was, there was a dictionary up there. Now the kids that I usually take up there are absolutely funny, because they are smart as whips, and they are just, well to put it simply unique, but thats good. Anyway, one of the little boys spotted the dictionary and decided to look up foul words. And he looked up B!t$h which I didnt know about until later, then one of the other boys, (whose mom happens to be a teacher at the school) decided he was going to find as many bad words in the dictionary as he could. And he knew how to spell them all, which was even more amusing. I told him he shouldnt do it, but of course he is a kid, and not going to listen most of the time, but he spent the next few minutes trying to find bad words. The last word he spent time finding was Hate.
Now, they don't like some of the kids in the class, and were going around saying Hate, so I told them it wasnt a very nice word to say, and it is a very strong word to say, which I whole heartedly believe (My daughter rarely uses that word, because she thinks it is a bad word.)
But then he looked up the definition and found that the other word in the dictionary for hate was detest, so he walked around for the next couple of minutes saying he dested this person.
Its funny, the things kids say and do for that matter, and most of the time its simply quite amusing. Especially the ones who are pretty smart.
These kids are great, I hardly ever had any issues with any of them.
Its funny sometimes to listen to a bunch of kids talk, and what they have to say.
They have a website that they get on for learning purposes, which is a great website, well actually the two they are allowed on are great, but they always try to convince me to let them get on other websites, and they are always competing with one another as to whom can get higher on the School high score list and the State High Score list. And that is pretty neat too. They are always trying to bump one another off the list.
I dont remember being this age, I dont remember any of the things I said or did near that age, I know we didnt have access to computers like the kids do today, if we had access at all.
Listening to them talk about who likes whom, and who did what and teasing one another ALL IN FUN, not making fun of, but just jesting them, is funny. Sometimes they can go a little to far, and then its time to step in, but the ones that I usually get to work with are really quite humourous. Even some of the other ones I dont get to work with daily (while I am there) are pretty interesting to talk to.
However it is great to sit back and listen to them, and their vast knowledge of things. Or what they think they know. And even them telling me I am wrong and trying to prove me so.
It is widely said and known that Kids Say the Darndest Things, but to actually sit back and listen to them is really very entertaining I think.
Right now what was my point again??
Oh yeah, today, I took a few of the kids upstairs to the computer lab, which is what I usually do on Tuesdays, but the funny part about it was, there was a dictionary up there. Now the kids that I usually take up there are absolutely funny, because they are smart as whips, and they are just, well to put it simply unique, but thats good. Anyway, one of the little boys spotted the dictionary and decided to look up foul words. And he looked up B!t$h which I didnt know about until later, then one of the other boys, (whose mom happens to be a teacher at the school) decided he was going to find as many bad words in the dictionary as he could. And he knew how to spell them all, which was even more amusing. I told him he shouldnt do it, but of course he is a kid, and not going to listen most of the time, but he spent the next few minutes trying to find bad words. The last word he spent time finding was Hate.
Now, they don't like some of the kids in the class, and were going around saying Hate, so I told them it wasnt a very nice word to say, and it is a very strong word to say, which I whole heartedly believe (My daughter rarely uses that word, because she thinks it is a bad word.)
But then he looked up the definition and found that the other word in the dictionary for hate was detest, so he walked around for the next couple of minutes saying he dested this person.
Its funny, the things kids say and do for that matter, and most of the time its simply quite amusing. Especially the ones who are pretty smart.
These kids are great, I hardly ever had any issues with any of them.
Its funny sometimes to listen to a bunch of kids talk, and what they have to say.
They have a website that they get on for learning purposes, which is a great website, well actually the two they are allowed on are great, but they always try to convince me to let them get on other websites, and they are always competing with one another as to whom can get higher on the School high score list and the State High Score list. And that is pretty neat too. They are always trying to bump one another off the list.
I dont remember being this age, I dont remember any of the things I said or did near that age, I know we didnt have access to computers like the kids do today, if we had access at all.
Listening to them talk about who likes whom, and who did what and teasing one another ALL IN FUN, not making fun of, but just jesting them, is funny. Sometimes they can go a little to far, and then its time to step in, but the ones that I usually get to work with are really quite humourous. Even some of the other ones I dont get to work with daily (while I am there) are pretty interesting to talk to.
However it is great to sit back and listen to them, and their vast knowledge of things. Or what they think they know. And even them telling me I am wrong and trying to prove me so.
It is widely said and known that Kids Say the Darndest Things, but to actually sit back and listen to them is really very entertaining I think.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Resolutions
Resolutions, I am not very big on making them, I do not tend to follow through with them, I read my sisters, and hope she is able to follow through with them, I know she can do it, and I completely agree with the fact that she should stop trying to stop trying to over think things. That is what she does, and it makes her who she is. And she is a Great Woman/Aunt/Sister/Friend.
Okay that said, I dont make resolutions, I always have many things I work on in my life, every day which is what I try to work on. Those are listed below
1) Strength- I believe I am a strong person, but I lack strength in many ways, and am always trying to improve.
2) Patience- I am not patient, I never have been, and I think it is hereditary.
3) Understanding- Not in myself, because I understand who I am and what I need, but in people, which follows with the next one.
4) Tolerance-
5)Be happy with who I am and where I am, and live life with no regrets- You can not regret anything in life, as I wrote in another post. Simply put, if you do, you will have scars on your soul, and doubt in your heart. Its not right.
6) And the last one is to Enjoy Life. I do this every day, as much as I can, because everyday is not guaranteed, and you need to live life and be able to be happy. Enjoy my family, my friends, and appreciate them every day!
These are all things I work on every day of my life. Work to improve on and enjoy everyday.
Sometimes people need reminded of the things they work on in life. No matter what it may be.
Live life to where you are happy, Be who you want to be. DO NOT let other people dictate who you are or should be. Know in your heart that what you are doing is right for you at the time.
Everything Happens for a Reason, and something good, no matter how small, comes out of everything.
Love, with all of your heart. This is for friends and family, and love for a partner.
Give your ALL in all you do, you get what you give.
I hope that all of my friends, and all of my family know everyday of the year, how much they mean to me, how much I love them, and for those who are far way, how much I miss them.
Happy 2009.
Okay that said, I dont make resolutions, I always have many things I work on in my life, every day which is what I try to work on. Those are listed below
1) Strength- I believe I am a strong person, but I lack strength in many ways, and am always trying to improve.
2) Patience- I am not patient, I never have been, and I think it is hereditary.
3) Understanding- Not in myself, because I understand who I am and what I need, but in people, which follows with the next one.
4) Tolerance-
5)Be happy with who I am and where I am, and live life with no regrets- You can not regret anything in life, as I wrote in another post. Simply put, if you do, you will have scars on your soul, and doubt in your heart. Its not right.
6) And the last one is to Enjoy Life. I do this every day, as much as I can, because everyday is not guaranteed, and you need to live life and be able to be happy. Enjoy my family, my friends, and appreciate them every day!
These are all things I work on every day of my life. Work to improve on and enjoy everyday.
Sometimes people need reminded of the things they work on in life. No matter what it may be.
Live life to where you are happy, Be who you want to be. DO NOT let other people dictate who you are or should be. Know in your heart that what you are doing is right for you at the time.
Everything Happens for a Reason, and something good, no matter how small, comes out of everything.
Love, with all of your heart. This is for friends and family, and love for a partner.
Give your ALL in all you do, you get what you give.
I hope that all of my friends, and all of my family know everyday of the year, how much they mean to me, how much I love them, and for those who are far way, how much I miss them.
Happy 2009.
Frustration
Its not a secret that I dont care to go to the doctor, its not that I dont like doctors, because I have a very good friend that is a doctor, and she is wonderful.
What I dont like is most doctors I have come across, in the treatment of myself or my family.
It basically started when I was 13, I went to a neurologist, who amazingly told me, I had acne (which I knew) and Migraines (which I also knew, because they are horrible) While he gave me some medicine for them, learning to stop them before they start is something that is completely impossible, because I have so many triggers that are completely unavoidable.
Not just that, but most doctors I have seen have only told me things I already knew, like a few years ago, when I went to the hospital because I had swollen up because of a mosquito bite that had swollen to the size of a softball, well the point is, all they told me at the hospital, is that I am allergic, which I knew.
I am not a know it all, I am not brilliant, but I know what the heck I am talking about the majority of the time, but none of those doctors listened to what I had to say and took me seriously, and then only told me what I already knew, and had just told them, which is completely irritating.
Anyway, I write that because yesterday I had the most frustrating event of all happen. However it started the night before, My hubby got a bloody nose, and because of a few of the meds he is on, and because we couldnt get it to stop, we went to the hospital, the doctor at the hospital as semi nice, he told us to go to the nose surgeon and have them remove the packing the next day (new years eve) so I called the doctor on New Years Eve, and the doctor was a COMPLETE ASS, to put it mildly, I talked to him on the phone, and he was very rude, and all but called me stupid. In the way he spoke to me, not only pissed me off, but I felt like he was belittling me and that he felt superior. I told him what the er doctor said that he was supposed to have the packing removed that day and he told me, "I dont care what the doctor said, I will not remove the packing." And while I type it it doesnt seem as completely rude and mean spirited as it actually was, the tone of voice he had completely bewhildered me and my daughter who was sitting next to me listening to the conversation.
We had to go in to see him, because hubby is in a lot of pain and discomfort. So we got to the doctor's office, and we had to wait an hour and a half after the scheduled appointment time. I think having to wait more than 30 minutes is completely assinine. But we finally got called back. The doctor nor the nurses made any appology for his tardiness, and the nurse that typed everything up was rude, and when the doctor finally came him he was really rude too. He dismissed everything hubby and I had to say, again belittled us and talked over us. He stood with his back to me, and to the side of hubby, and when I asked him a question, he refused to look at me, and stared at the wall, or closed his eyes when he answered my question, again talking to me and hubby like we were stupid. Hubby asked him to remove the packing in his nose, the doctor refused, being an ass he told us, "If I remove it it will bleed again, I am not taking it out" (although he told me over the phone he could and clean and replace the packing) " And it will not come out until At the earliest Friday." He also went on to tell us that the dr in the ER was dumb (not in so many words) for not putting hubby on pain pills and antibiotics.
But get this, When we were in the ER, the dr was looking up Hubby's nose, he made clear mention of the fact that "Whoever did this surgery on your nose, mucked with something they shouldnt have it looks like." And he also said that the side of the nose that the surgery was meant to be done on didnt look like it had been done.
The doctor we saw on New Years eve was not the doctor who did the surgery, it was one of his partners, and maybe he was trying to cover his buddies butt, I dont know, but it is ridiculous.
Now, on to something else, yeah this isnt my usual form of writing, its actually a lot more venting, because I needed a form to release this stress on my shoulders.
I know not all doctors are this way, hubby has a great physician, daughter has a pretty cool dentist, and hubby has an okay cardiologist. And like I said, I have a great friend who is a doctor and a good one, so I know that there are good ones out there.
Just as I say this, its not just doctors, its people in general who think that they are superior to anyone that really ticks me off. And I know there are a lot of them out there, because whether it be my fortune or not, I have come across several of those types of people.
I dont care what people think of me, or whether or not they like me, but I treat everyone the way I would like to be treated, kindly and with the benifit of a doubt (respect, like trust, is not freely given, it MUST be earned). I tend to think of myself as a kind person, I would do almost anything for almost anyone. (depending on what it is and who you are to me)
Point being NO ONE deserves to be treated or talked to like they are stupid, (even if the person is or acts that way) Yeah we live in a world ful of Mo-Rons, but I will not talk to someone or treat someone in that manner.
I know I know, I am not a people person, but I am not outright rude to people.
Especially if my carreer was one in which I worked with people all the time, or if I was a physician, regardless of if it is a holiday or not, I would do my best to not treat people in that manner.
Okay, so that is enough of that....Thanks for listening.
What I dont like is most doctors I have come across, in the treatment of myself or my family.
It basically started when I was 13, I went to a neurologist, who amazingly told me, I had acne (which I knew) and Migraines (which I also knew, because they are horrible) While he gave me some medicine for them, learning to stop them before they start is something that is completely impossible, because I have so many triggers that are completely unavoidable.
Not just that, but most doctors I have seen have only told me things I already knew, like a few years ago, when I went to the hospital because I had swollen up because of a mosquito bite that had swollen to the size of a softball, well the point is, all they told me at the hospital, is that I am allergic, which I knew.
I am not a know it all, I am not brilliant, but I know what the heck I am talking about the majority of the time, but none of those doctors listened to what I had to say and took me seriously, and then only told me what I already knew, and had just told them, which is completely irritating.
Anyway, I write that because yesterday I had the most frustrating event of all happen. However it started the night before, My hubby got a bloody nose, and because of a few of the meds he is on, and because we couldnt get it to stop, we went to the hospital, the doctor at the hospital as semi nice, he told us to go to the nose surgeon and have them remove the packing the next day (new years eve) so I called the doctor on New Years Eve, and the doctor was a COMPLETE ASS, to put it mildly, I talked to him on the phone, and he was very rude, and all but called me stupid. In the way he spoke to me, not only pissed me off, but I felt like he was belittling me and that he felt superior. I told him what the er doctor said that he was supposed to have the packing removed that day and he told me, "I dont care what the doctor said, I will not remove the packing." And while I type it it doesnt seem as completely rude and mean spirited as it actually was, the tone of voice he had completely bewhildered me and my daughter who was sitting next to me listening to the conversation.
We had to go in to see him, because hubby is in a lot of pain and discomfort. So we got to the doctor's office, and we had to wait an hour and a half after the scheduled appointment time. I think having to wait more than 30 minutes is completely assinine. But we finally got called back. The doctor nor the nurses made any appology for his tardiness, and the nurse that typed everything up was rude, and when the doctor finally came him he was really rude too. He dismissed everything hubby and I had to say, again belittled us and talked over us. He stood with his back to me, and to the side of hubby, and when I asked him a question, he refused to look at me, and stared at the wall, or closed his eyes when he answered my question, again talking to me and hubby like we were stupid. Hubby asked him to remove the packing in his nose, the doctor refused, being an ass he told us, "If I remove it it will bleed again, I am not taking it out" (although he told me over the phone he could and clean and replace the packing) " And it will not come out until At the earliest Friday." He also went on to tell us that the dr in the ER was dumb (not in so many words) for not putting hubby on pain pills and antibiotics.
But get this, When we were in the ER, the dr was looking up Hubby's nose, he made clear mention of the fact that "Whoever did this surgery on your nose, mucked with something they shouldnt have it looks like." And he also said that the side of the nose that the surgery was meant to be done on didnt look like it had been done.
The doctor we saw on New Years eve was not the doctor who did the surgery, it was one of his partners, and maybe he was trying to cover his buddies butt, I dont know, but it is ridiculous.
Now, on to something else, yeah this isnt my usual form of writing, its actually a lot more venting, because I needed a form to release this stress on my shoulders.
I know not all doctors are this way, hubby has a great physician, daughter has a pretty cool dentist, and hubby has an okay cardiologist. And like I said, I have a great friend who is a doctor and a good one, so I know that there are good ones out there.
Just as I say this, its not just doctors, its people in general who think that they are superior to anyone that really ticks me off. And I know there are a lot of them out there, because whether it be my fortune or not, I have come across several of those types of people.
I dont care what people think of me, or whether or not they like me, but I treat everyone the way I would like to be treated, kindly and with the benifit of a doubt (respect, like trust, is not freely given, it MUST be earned). I tend to think of myself as a kind person, I would do almost anything for almost anyone. (depending on what it is and who you are to me)
Point being NO ONE deserves to be treated or talked to like they are stupid, (even if the person is or acts that way) Yeah we live in a world ful of Mo-Rons, but I will not talk to someone or treat someone in that manner.
I know I know, I am not a people person, but I am not outright rude to people.
Especially if my carreer was one in which I worked with people all the time, or if I was a physician, regardless of if it is a holiday or not, I would do my best to not treat people in that manner.
Okay, so that is enough of that....Thanks for listening.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Ideas?
Right now, I am fresh out of ideas as of things to write. I have tried to write a couple of blogs, but all have ended up in the trash, because I couldnt get my point across. So if you have any ideas for things I should write about let me know please.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Trust?
~Trust, defined means an assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, and/or truth of someone or something.
~Friend defined is one attached to another by affection or esteem.
There is no denying I have trust issues. I dont even try to hide that fact, in fact, I am completely honest about that fact. And sadly as the years move on, and I grow "Older" and wiser, I trust fewer and fewer people.
There is someone in my family, who has a very similar attitude, or way of thinking, who doesnt get along with many people, and who prefers to remain to herself, with select family around her, sadly even some of her children are not included in that inner circle. I know I am not completely the same thinking as her, as I allow people into my life, and am willing to trust, but it is something a person has to earn, and can very easily be lost. I do not want to end up pushing people away though, and I do my best to make sure that the people who mean so much to me remain in my life.
There are very few people in which I trust completely. I know I can rely on them for anything, and they happen to be wonderful people, and great friends and family.
Being lied to so much throughout life about various instances has made me very cynical. I see the world through shaded glasses. Which in short means, while I believe in the good in people, I dont necessarily believe in people. Which I do not mean to sound condescending about it but that is how I feel about most people.
When you go through life believing something about someone that wasnt true to begin with, then MANY years later to find out that what you thought was true actually was fabricated, brings about a whole lot of questions, as to what actually was the truth.
I have a good support system in my life. People, who like I said, I trust emphatically, who help me to understand and make sense of many things.
Family is a great thing, especially when they are on your side.
I read a question once, asking "Are you the same person you were 5 years ago?"
Well, I am the same person I was 5 years ago, only wiser. With the help of my great friends and family.
However, I am not the same person I was in High School, or that I was as a child. I have not only grown up, and found truths in my life, but I have become MORE secure in who I am, and where I belong. And all the while, in High School, I trusted many more people than I do now, and felt worse about myself.
I am happy with who I am, and dont regret anything in life. Sometimes I try to figure out why I have gone through certain things, try to figure out what is what from the past, BUT I wouldnt change any of it if I could.
I was told before I should regret not going to prom, being a wall flower- anti-social, not having a lot of friends in school. I dont, not by a long shot, none of that would make me who I am. I went to a dance for school in 7th grade, it was boring, and I had no fun. being Anti-Social, or more a Wall Flower that doesnt bother me either, why? because, I know who my true friends are now, and I knew then that people who wanted to know me did know me.
I do not go out of my way to meet people. But I let people into my life, if they choose to be in it. I do my best not to push people away. And I am as true a friend to them as I can be. And I hope they return the favor.
Regretting anything in life, wont get you anywhere. However it will get you a scar on your soul. It gets you a pain in your heart, and gets you questioning much about life.
No, I dont regret anything about my life. Yup some of the things, that have happened have really sucked, some of them have been pretty difficult to deal with, but MANY of them recently have been wonderful.
What I have treasured most the past few years, besides my hubby and daughter (which is the greatest treasure), is learning things about my dad and being able to spend some time with him and my "mom" (step-mom sounds a little mean to me), bringing some great people back into my life, whom have become family. And one that is right up there with my hubby and daughter, is becoming closer with my sister.
Trust is fading in many people, simply because they dont try to keep it. Trust is Not freely given, it must be earned, and maintained, so to speak, because it can very easily be lost.
In life there are very few GREAT people who walk into your life and stay. KEEP them close. Dont let them slip away. Guard them with your heart. Treasure them. And know they are there for you.
For those who mean the world to me, and you know who you are, Thank you for being there for me, thank you for letting me trust in you, thank you for being you. I greatly treasure you, and the fact that you are in my life. Not just now, but ALWAYS.
Much Love.
~Friend defined is one attached to another by affection or esteem.
There is no denying I have trust issues. I dont even try to hide that fact, in fact, I am completely honest about that fact. And sadly as the years move on, and I grow "Older" and wiser, I trust fewer and fewer people.
There is someone in my family, who has a very similar attitude, or way of thinking, who doesnt get along with many people, and who prefers to remain to herself, with select family around her, sadly even some of her children are not included in that inner circle. I know I am not completely the same thinking as her, as I allow people into my life, and am willing to trust, but it is something a person has to earn, and can very easily be lost. I do not want to end up pushing people away though, and I do my best to make sure that the people who mean so much to me remain in my life.
There are very few people in which I trust completely. I know I can rely on them for anything, and they happen to be wonderful people, and great friends and family.
Being lied to so much throughout life about various instances has made me very cynical. I see the world through shaded glasses. Which in short means, while I believe in the good in people, I dont necessarily believe in people. Which I do not mean to sound condescending about it but that is how I feel about most people.
When you go through life believing something about someone that wasnt true to begin with, then MANY years later to find out that what you thought was true actually was fabricated, brings about a whole lot of questions, as to what actually was the truth.
I have a good support system in my life. People, who like I said, I trust emphatically, who help me to understand and make sense of many things.
Family is a great thing, especially when they are on your side.
I read a question once, asking "Are you the same person you were 5 years ago?"
Well, I am the same person I was 5 years ago, only wiser. With the help of my great friends and family.
However, I am not the same person I was in High School, or that I was as a child. I have not only grown up, and found truths in my life, but I have become MORE secure in who I am, and where I belong. And all the while, in High School, I trusted many more people than I do now, and felt worse about myself.
I am happy with who I am, and dont regret anything in life. Sometimes I try to figure out why I have gone through certain things, try to figure out what is what from the past, BUT I wouldnt change any of it if I could.
I was told before I should regret not going to prom, being a wall flower- anti-social, not having a lot of friends in school. I dont, not by a long shot, none of that would make me who I am. I went to a dance for school in 7th grade, it was boring, and I had no fun. being Anti-Social, or more a Wall Flower that doesnt bother me either, why? because, I know who my true friends are now, and I knew then that people who wanted to know me did know me.
I do not go out of my way to meet people. But I let people into my life, if they choose to be in it. I do my best not to push people away. And I am as true a friend to them as I can be. And I hope they return the favor.
Regretting anything in life, wont get you anywhere. However it will get you a scar on your soul. It gets you a pain in your heart, and gets you questioning much about life.
No, I dont regret anything about my life. Yup some of the things, that have happened have really sucked, some of them have been pretty difficult to deal with, but MANY of them recently have been wonderful.
What I have treasured most the past few years, besides my hubby and daughter (which is the greatest treasure), is learning things about my dad and being able to spend some time with him and my "mom" (step-mom sounds a little mean to me), bringing some great people back into my life, whom have become family. And one that is right up there with my hubby and daughter, is becoming closer with my sister.
Trust is fading in many people, simply because they dont try to keep it. Trust is Not freely given, it must be earned, and maintained, so to speak, because it can very easily be lost.
In life there are very few GREAT people who walk into your life and stay. KEEP them close. Dont let them slip away. Guard them with your heart. Treasure them. And know they are there for you.
For those who mean the world to me, and you know who you are, Thank you for being there for me, thank you for letting me trust in you, thank you for being you. I greatly treasure you, and the fact that you are in my life. Not just now, but ALWAYS.
Much Love.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Memories??
Merriam Webster defines Memories as: the power or process of reproducing or recalling what has been learned and retained especially through associative mechanisms and the storage of things learned and retained from an organism’s activity or experience as evidenced by modification of structure or behavior or by recall and recognition.
I recently heard that it is not “normal” to not remember a lot of events from your childhood. And that if you do not remember a lot, that you have blocked it out of your memory for some reason.
I have never had many memories from growing up. And thinking back on to what very little I can actually remember, the things I do remember, which are very few and far between, are mostly because something bad happened. I remember some good things, but not many.
I was just reading a post that my sister wrote about an adventure we had, that I don’t remember happening. She remembers back when I was really little, probably more than I do.
Things I remember were like walking really far one morning to get to the baby sitter, because the car broke down. Getting yelled at by the baby sitter, getting yelled at by my mom.
I remember when I was in second grade, my brother, sister and I were late to school pretty much every day, because the baby sitter decided she wanted to drop her kids off at school first, even though their school started later than ours. I remember getting yelled at because a crow that had come down the chimney into the house was locked in the den, and I had forgotten and opened the door, and got in trouble. See all of these things aren’t great memories, and are pretty close to the only ones I have for childhood, with the exception of a couple of good memories.
Some people can recall a lot of things about their childhood. I have talked to my hubby about his childhood, and he remembers a whole lot more than I do. He remembers a lot about school and things he did. I cant recall much of anything from elementary, or middle school (besides walking home from school every day), and recall very little from high school, besides mostly not wanting to be there.
So it leaves me to wonder several things, like
1) Is the little bit that I remember actually “normal”?
2) If it is not normal, then why am I repressing so many memories?
3) What would be the cause of the repressed memories?
I know I am not what is described as “Normal” and I have no desire to be. I have no desire to fit in, and I would rather be happy with me, and have my family be happy with me, then to try to fit in. Its not logical to try to please everyone else, and to still remain true to yourself.
There is a saying:
“To thine own self be true”
And if you go around trying to please everyone else, or trying to fit in, then you aren’t being true to yourself.
Maybe I am not being logical thinking that way, but it doesn’t really matter. I know what and who I am, and I know the way I think, and whether or not what I am thinking may be detrimental or just hurtful to anyone. And for the most part it isn’t.
The only part of my personality that is hurtful to people is the fact that I am pretty blunt. I usually say what I am thinking, and tell people how I feel about any and everything. But usually I am also very shy, unless I do have something to say. Then I don’t beat around the bush.
Anyway, whether or not I remember as many things as the “average normal” person, isn’t much of a factor to me, but it does make me wonder a little why I don’t remember as much as “most” people do.
I recently heard that it is not “normal” to not remember a lot of events from your childhood. And that if you do not remember a lot, that you have blocked it out of your memory for some reason.
I have never had many memories from growing up. And thinking back on to what very little I can actually remember, the things I do remember, which are very few and far between, are mostly because something bad happened. I remember some good things, but not many.
I was just reading a post that my sister wrote about an adventure we had, that I don’t remember happening. She remembers back when I was really little, probably more than I do.
Things I remember were like walking really far one morning to get to the baby sitter, because the car broke down. Getting yelled at by the baby sitter, getting yelled at by my mom.
I remember when I was in second grade, my brother, sister and I were late to school pretty much every day, because the baby sitter decided she wanted to drop her kids off at school first, even though their school started later than ours. I remember getting yelled at because a crow that had come down the chimney into the house was locked in the den, and I had forgotten and opened the door, and got in trouble. See all of these things aren’t great memories, and are pretty close to the only ones I have for childhood, with the exception of a couple of good memories.
Some people can recall a lot of things about their childhood. I have talked to my hubby about his childhood, and he remembers a whole lot more than I do. He remembers a lot about school and things he did. I cant recall much of anything from elementary, or middle school (besides walking home from school every day), and recall very little from high school, besides mostly not wanting to be there.
So it leaves me to wonder several things, like
1) Is the little bit that I remember actually “normal”?
2) If it is not normal, then why am I repressing so many memories?
3) What would be the cause of the repressed memories?
I know I am not what is described as “Normal” and I have no desire to be. I have no desire to fit in, and I would rather be happy with me, and have my family be happy with me, then to try to fit in. Its not logical to try to please everyone else, and to still remain true to yourself.
There is a saying:
“To thine own self be true”
And if you go around trying to please everyone else, or trying to fit in, then you aren’t being true to yourself.
Maybe I am not being logical thinking that way, but it doesn’t really matter. I know what and who I am, and I know the way I think, and whether or not what I am thinking may be detrimental or just hurtful to anyone. And for the most part it isn’t.
The only part of my personality that is hurtful to people is the fact that I am pretty blunt. I usually say what I am thinking, and tell people how I feel about any and everything. But usually I am also very shy, unless I do have something to say. Then I don’t beat around the bush.
Anyway, whether or not I remember as many things as the “average normal” person, isn’t much of a factor to me, but it does make me wonder a little why I don’t remember as much as “most” people do.
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